Haha, my life is full of surprises... which causes me to basically be moded ALL THE FREAKING TIME.  ZOMG, life, you're funny.

And now, time for some reflect-y stuff:

So, during these past few weeks, I've realized how much I care about what other people think about me when I shouldn't.  I mean, I think that it's okay to care about what others think to a certain extent because you don't want to totally isolate yourself from people, but lately I think I've been caring about it a bit too much.  I brought this up because I have a decision to make, and a big reason why I would want to say no is because of the reactions of other people.  If I didn't take that into account, I probably would have said yes already.  But gah, it's hard not to take others' opinions into account -- I have a reputation to uphold!  (Well, not really since I don't really have a reputation...)   

So, I'm probably going to SIR today!  I made my college decision almost a month ago, but I still wait 'til the last minute to SIR (yes, it's a verb) like the procrastinator I am.  Now all I have to do is not fail any of my classes (I need to get some major studying done for a certain class that I may have a D in right now.... crap).   I have 5 finals this week, and then AP tests and more finals the week after, and then more AP tests the week after that.  But then after that I should be basically done with school (!!!)... except I probably have some late work to turn in. Bah. 

Other stuff that's been happening:
- I have a cold and have been coughing like crazy.
- I think I had pink eye for like two or three days.  Fun stuff.
- I went to bed at 10:30 last night because I was soooo tired.
- I watched some CCS today to make me feel happy :)

Also, about my previous post -- heh.  I'm not really depressed by what happened any more, but I can't say I'm off the wall about the situation.  I've pretty much accepted it, and am trying to stay pretty optimistic about everything... hopefully everything will work out for me in the end, and I'll wonder why I was so upset about it in the first place.  :) 

Today I TOTALLY FAILED AT LIFE.  Let's just say... I had some assumptions about something, and I found out that my assumptions were wrong in THE WORST POSSIBLE WAY.  Gah, this is why I hate assuming things... but I thought I had pretty good evidence.  And maybe I was being a bit too optimistic/hopeful.  Well, hopefully this will never happen again because I don't think I could handle another blow like this. 

Anyways, I kept that intentionally vague.  Hopefully when I look back at this journal entry months from now, I'll have forgotten what it was all about... because right now I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT MY STUPIDITY GAHHHHHH.

I haven't been able to do homework because of the... incident.  Well, not that I would've done much homework anyways... but there's one assignment that I really should do... but it's a sort of depressing assignment, and well -- I'm depressed enough right now as it is.  DARN YOU, LIFE.

Okay, so this entry isn't really happy because I'm not really happy right now... maybe I should use those techniques I learned in Psych class today.  Haha.  But to the one person reading this, even though I'm not at my happiest right now, I know I'll be okay.  I'll get over this... maybe not right away, but I'll try not to dwell on it too much.  I like to think that everything happens for a reason, so even though things didn't work out how I originally predicted/hoped, maybe it's really a blessing in disguise.  I hope.  :)  Also, this isn't something really major or tragic... but it just sort of took me by surprise.

ETA: I would also like to add that my mp3 player did not help me get any happier... the songs that came up really reflected how I felt at the time, which was not good.  Darn you mp3 player!

Darn you, guilt-trippers.  Argh.

I really want to move away from all this college stuff on this lj but MAN!  That's all everyone talks about in and out of school.  Hahaha OH MAN DONE WITH HIGH SCHOOL LET'S GO!!!

Random things about the college admissions season that bugs me:

• When people are against going to a certain college (lots of times they'll say they applied there because their parents made them or, in the case of the UCs, it's just an extra push of a button -- and 60 bucks), but once they get rejected from their top choices they start to talk about how that certain college is awesome.
• When people can't go to their top colleges because of lack of money.  =(
• When people cry about not getting into an Ivy/top college when they've already gotten into 30947539457 other Ivies/top colleges.
• When people who I think deserved to get into a college gets rejected =(
• When parents force their children to go to a certain college even though the child might not to go there *cough*
• When people choose to attend a college because of its prestige (there's more to that in a college, you know)
• Meh, there's more, but I really should be doing homework right now.

What I did during spring break:

- looked at college stuff
- some fanfic-ing but not really
- watched a bunch of episodes of TC (almost done with season 2!  Then it's time for the OVAs...)
- ate ice cream

Okay.  I'm going to do homework for at least one my classes tonight.  Wish me luck!  =)

So... didn't get into TOC, and I couldn't be more relieved.  :)

Looks like I'll be at SD next fall.  I'm sooo psyched!  The 'rents weren't as upset as I thought they would be, which makes me feel a lot better about everything.  Of course, I have some reservations about it, but not as many as I would have if I were attending TOC.

I have a feeling it's going to be an awesome next four years... I hope I'm right!  ^_^

Yay, a happy post!!!  =D

Anyhoo, brief TC comments: I overall like this series, but some of their filler episodes are sort of boring.  I just finished watching ep. 44 (whee, Kero-chan!), and I plan on skipping 45 and 46 because they sound boring.  Haha.  They need more like episodes like 37!  :D 

I've been informed that someone actually reads this!  *waves hello*  =)  So, what the hey, how about an update, neh?

Despite my sorta angsty college-y rant a few days ago, I'd like to say that I got into UCSD, and I'm pretty excited about it!  I would be REALLY excited if I know for sure that I would go there if I didn't get into TOC (TOCTEMtA is too long to type out every single time, so I've abbreviated it) but my parental units may make me stay closer to home.   Of course, if I get into TOC, this won't even matter, but I'm trying to be realistic.  =)

So, what else has happened since my last update?  Got into some colleges, exciting stuff.  Turned 18... not really that exciting, actually.  But oh well.  Perhaps I'll get off my lazy butt and get my driver's license now that I don't apply to those pesky restrictions... but probably not. 

I have a crapload of homework to do, but the bad part about it is that most of it is due Tuesday, which means I haven't been completely motivated to finish it over the weekend and will probably have a lot of crap to do Monday night.   Blahh.

In other news, I've heard about some pretty depressing things that have happened recently, some of which makes my troubles seem like nothing.   *gives worldwide virtual hugs*  In the words of Kinomoto Sakura of CCS,  "Everything will be alright."  It's the invincible spell!  =)

see, anime can apply to real life!

I don't really know why I'm updating this right now.  Well, I guess it's because I'm a bit out-of-sorts and I need a place to rant. 

It's funny reading my previous entries on this journal, which were written when I was a dear lil' froshie in HS.  Weirdly enough, after reading the entries, I had a slight urge to comment on them and say, "You think you had it tough with your classes?!  You ain't seen nothin' yet!!!!"  But that would've been weird... sort of like me going back in time to talk with my past self... or something like that.  Maybe.  I don't know if I'm making sense anymore.  It must be because I haven't written an English essay in a while, since I don't have any English classes this semester... I've forgotten how to write coherently!  Oh noes!

ANYWAYS, I had a motive for starting this entry other than to reflect on my past entries. 

So what has been going on in my life lately?  Well, I'm a SSS (Second Semester Senior, not to be confused with the Side-Side-Side triangle rule from Geometry), am turning 18 tomorrow, and got into a college that frankly my parents couldn't care less about because it's not That One College They Expect Me to Attend (TOCTEMtA). *cough*Cal*cough*  There's a good chance I'll find out about another college admission decision tomorrow, and hopefully it'll be good news because if I don't get into that college, I have no chance of getting to TOCTEMtA.  Gah, NERVE-WRACKING!!!

All of this college stuff has me all out-of-sorts because of all the expectations.  I know people are trying to be nice when they say to me "Oh, don't worry, I'm sure you'll get into [insert college here]!" or similar stuff, but it honestly makes me feel a bit uneasy because, darnit, I don't know if I'll get in, and no one else (well, except the actual admissions people) knows either until I get the letter (or email, hah).

So, this college stuff has got me thinking about what's REALLY important.  I mean, it's great to go to a really prestigious college like the Ivies or Stanford or MIT or TOCTEMtA, but really, in the end, does it really matter?  There are so many successful people in the world that didn't go to one of those colleges (some didn't even go to college at all, but that's a different story entirely).  In the end, the name of the college where you got your degree from may just become one tiny aspect of your life.  I'm sure that, looking back, I'll probably be laughing about how much people (myself included) are freaking out about this.  I honestly think we need to just sort of get a slap to the face and have someone say "CHILL GUYS.  YOU'RE ALL GONNA GO TO COLLEGE.  BE HAPPY, MAN."

Of course, this is all easier said than done.  *sigh*

Here's to hoping for a better tomorrow! =)   Or something like that. 

/ weird ranty college-y entry

bah, the subject has nothing to do with this entry.

Anyways, hello people. Today is Friday. I LOVE Fridays. Why? Because:

1. I don't start school until 9:15.
2. I end school at 1:10.
3. I only have 4 classes.
4. I don't have to do my (large amount) of homework.
5. I can read more fanfiction!
6. I can watch more TV!
7. I can just be happier!

Yes, Friday's rock. Well school was just cool and all the jazz:

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Duuuude, I just read one of my favorite fics (the one with my Latin family name in it), and it was the last chapter... It ended so SADLY. =( Darnit, I hate it when that happens.

Hello livejournal people. Today was my first day of classes and yesterday & Wednesday was orientation. Orientation was alright... met a lot of people. Today was.. gah. Haha. Though I'm proud to say that I wasn't late or lost when I was going to my classes! Whoo, yes! Well, maybe a was a little lost, but I still came on time.

My classes and such:

1 - Algebra 2 H: Okay, I have NO IDEA how I even got into this class. Those SI people were not in their right mind when they placed me. I'm sooo scared that I'm gonna like fail out of the class and then get demoted to Algebra 1 Accelerated and have to change my schedule and BLAH. I'm sitting in the front... darn it. Plus, I found out today that I bought the WRONG TEXTBOOK. I got the one for Algebra 2, not Algebra 2 H. And I couldn't buy the right book today because I have no money. AND I have homework from the textbook. GREAT, GREAT, GREAT. *sarcastic*

2 - Biology: this class seems okay so far. Mr. O'Malley seems nice. All we did was put part of a puzzle together. My table rocked because we put most of our pieces together. Yuuuup.

recess: dude, recess just seems so SHORT! Holy smoley... I was just getting my books and stuff ready for the next classes and it was like already the end of recess. Bah, humbug.

3 - P.E.: we didn't really do anything. Just talked and stuff, so yeah. I dunno how I'll survive this class on Mondays because it's right before lunch... I'm gonna be HUNGRY haha.

4 - Lunch: Umm... I ate at the Commons and yeeeeeah.

5 - Latin: This class seems alright. Mrs. Curcio's nice and it seems fun. Yuppers...

6 - English 103H: I think I'm gonna hate English this year. `tis all.

7 - World History: Doesn't seem as cool as Biology, but not as bad as English. I dunno how this class is gonna be... hopefully it's okay.

So that was my school day-ness. Holy smoley, I hope it gets better haha. I'm sitting in the front in 3 of my classes, gosh darnit! And it's in Algebra, English, and World History, the classes I'm sorta like 'ehhh..' about. whooness. *rolls eyes*

hello, livejournalers. I'm updating because... I feel like it. No fanfic rants at the moment, sorry to disappoint you all. ;D Hmm, maybe I can think of a fanfic to rant about... or not. Oh yes, I stopped reading that fanfic I was ranting about in my previous entry. It was just too terrible for me to stand haha. And that fic that everyone seems to read updated yesterday. Didn't read it though b/c I don't really like it. I don't understand why so many people like that fic... sure, it's written well and all, but so are a lot of others. I guess a lot of people like that kinda soap-operaish stuff. Bleh. Wow, I just ranted about a fic without realizing it until now. Wowzers. Okay, going now... Farewell, non-existent people that read this!

Hey lj readers! Not that I have any, but anyways. This Friday I'm going to Reno to watch a Filipino concert thing! Yay! And last Friday I went to the east coast for vacation... fun stuff. For more info, read the xanga. Well, I have to write a post on it, but it'll come eventually to my xanga.

Dude, did you hear what the 6th Harry Potter book is gonna be called?! (If you didn't know, I have an obsession with Harry Potter as well as cheese, chips, donuts, fanfiction, and a bunch of other stuff.) Anyways, if you don't want to know, then don't read the next sentence. It's gonna be called Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. Pretty nifty title, yes? I think so. And JKR already said that the HBP isn't Harry and Voldemort. Darn. I wonder who it is then... Seamus?? LoL. And I bet you a lot of fanfiction will be coming out with that title. I bet you... if it's anything like with OotP.

Speaking of fanfiction... I think I'll go read some. No... I should start on my summer reading, dangit! But... fanfiction... summer reading... fanfiction... Should I read what I want to read or what I have to read? Darnit.